Where i stood by Kikyo

Where i stood by Kikyo

Looking down into a valley, Kikyo sat thinking over the past two years. Her one objection in this half life of hers was to destroy her love. Now that Naraku was dead she had slowly regained her conscious. Killing InuYasha was not what she wanted to do. Neither was making sure his life was ruined.

With her clear head she looked at the scene beneath her. InuYasha and his friends were having a nice dinner while playing with things from Kagome’s time and telling jokes.

She sat watching until everyone, including InuYasha were asleep.

Using her miko powers Kikyo sent a message into InuYasha’s dreams.

I was once a pure soul. Now I am an ugly, contorted, evil one.

Deep down I have always known I couldn’t stay with you.

The sounds were my conscious. It used to be muffled by hate but I can hear it now.

All I know is that I should

Without my want to kill you I am nothing. I have nothing and I feel nothing. And I know that it’s not right.

I don’t think I like the fact you are with Kagome but because she is my reincarnation I know that I should.

Kagome can treat you better than I. Kagome is the only one who can stand where I was in your heart.

But love isn’t one or the other. It is a symphony of change and being dead, I cant change.

Inside

I know that you don’t want me to go, but we both know that it’s for our own good. I keep having doubts but I remind myself, I’m dead.

I need to move on so that when you need me I can come to you as a pure spirit.

I love you and you are the thing that I will always think of.

You taught me that I needed a life other than guarding the Sacred Jewel, and that I was meant for more.

And this is the only thing I can do to say thank you.

You need to move on, but first I wanted to tell you I love you.

Once she was in her clay body again she purified herself, leaving her love to find his…